freaking worried

I'm so freaking anxious to know the result of today's assessment. I'm not emotionally ready to lose the job. I'm worried. I know I didn't do well today. Again. But I did try my best though. Luck wasn't on my way I guess.
I hope not to receive any text message or call from SWA tonight nor tomorrow or else I will be in trouble. I don't want to. Ahhh...I'm freaking worried.
I want the job and I just can't afford to find a new one...at least not now.
And guess what? I saw this cat outside the building. They say it's a bad luck if you see a black cat on your way. Oh wait! This one isn't black, is it? Umm... Good sign. Anyway, I'm not a relying-for-luck-kind of person. I still hope for a positive result. Oh, please!
This kitten was actually a bit shy. He or maybe she (I do not know, can't tell either) hid when I was about to take a photo.
I do feel tired right now. I'm sleepy but I just can't seem to sleep. Why all of a sudden I crave to eat more. The not-so-good nor not-so-bad effect of anxieties. I used to lose appetite when I feel bad but seems like it's the other way around tonight. Goodness!
Good thing that Gina and Daisy dropped by the house today. It was so kind of them to cheer me up.
P.S. I put my phone in a silent mode already. I don't want to hear it beeps but still I can't help but check it once in a while. I dread the thought of seeing any text messages there. Hope I will not receive any sms tonight and tomorrow. No text messages/call means no trouble.



my co-trainees with Steve