mr mentos

Mr Mentos guy ( yeah guess I should call him like that) went back to UK.He had his flight at 5pm. It’s kinda sad knowing he won’t be around anymore.
He’s the most thoughtful trainer that I ever known. He was just so thoughtful to write us some “notes” and that simple “gesture” of showing he cares mean a lot.

my not so routine day

It's my day off! I had this 11pm-8:30am schedule last week (Mon-Sunday) and for this week I have my shift starting at 3:30pm. As of now I like having a shifting schedule because even if I do the same job but the day isn't that routine after all.
Back to work again tomorrow. This week is the end of our "academy" (that's what they refer it) and I don't know if I will be extended for another week or will pass the academy. Whatever the result will be, I think I'm ready. I mean whatever happens I'll just face it. Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there, with open arms and open eyes.
I miss my niece Sage and I want to go home to see her.

Boyce Avenue

Went to see Boyce Avenue's mall show/concert in the evening after meeting Jen in the afternoon.
Daisy and I waited for like more than 2 hours just to have a good spot so we could have a good glance at the guys. I felt kinda stupid at first for waiting for that period of time and just imagine standing for those hours (but glad I didn't spend the whole waiting hours standing, I managed to sit on the place where we were standing. Anyway, many were doing the same thing so it wasn't much of a shame :D
I actually haven't heard about this band before (except of course when Daisy told me about them). I had fun watching the show/concert and the crowd was even hysterical. Too bad I didn't catch the bear stuff toy that they threw. I was almost like near it but no luck.
It was fun and it was worth the wait.

reality of life

It’s Valentines Day! As if there’s a need to remind everyone about it. I was happy the whole day until Jen said that she decided to accept the job offer in Batangas. I do feel sad about it. Maybe I’m such a crybaby after all. My co-trainees in SWA are really wonderful and we all get along pretty well and it’s just so sad that Jen had decided to leave. It’s crazy because I can’t help but feel sad and can’t help my tears from falling down. We’re all like starting to build a wonderful friendship but I guess life has its way of making us sad and miserable. I don’t understand. Why do we meet good friends if we will only be separated from them? Isn’t it cruel? And I just hate thinking that everything happens for a reason. Silly.
I do feel sad right now. I just feel like good friends are just passing by in my life. Ah, I’m just a silly emotional person. I cry a lot. Cry for people who’ve touched my life knowing that soon they will be just a distant memory.
Sometimes I wish I have a hard heart so I will not end up crying or feeling sad or feeling sorry whenever someone leaves.
I’m tired of crying but it seems like it’s the only thing that can somehow relieve the sadness that dwells in my heart.

Glad I made it!

It's Friday the 13th. Not a bad day after all. We had our assessment today and thank God I made it. Sad to say 2 of our co-trainees did not make it, Joy and Salvhe. Joy is a nice person. I wish her good luck. I don't know much about Salvhe but she seems nice too. I'm sure something wonderful awaits them both.
I'm glad to know them both.
I guess this day wasn't easy. The waiting for the result of the assessment was like a torture. We never know if we would make it or not and we were like planning of applying in other companies again. I was personally a bit unsure whether I would make it or not. Thank God I got a positive result.

And Steve was so thoughtful enough to give us all a "souvenir". I think he's really sweet and thoughtful. He's a wonderful and nice trainer.

Well, I guess that's all for today. Thank God for this day.

the system is down

Thanks the system is down? Or maybe no thanks. I wonder if it makes a difference anyway. It was like a bad feeling yesterday and I guess most of my co-trainees were also anxious to know the result of the assessment.
You know that feeling when you are waiting for a result of your final exam and you just don't know if you will make it or not? You feel terrible, right?
So the system is down since yesterday but it will most probably be up tomorrow for the assessment, again. Huh. I don't want to worry myself anymore but I ah, I still can't help feeling worried...okay I guess that's okay to worry about it but I hope not to worry too much. Whatever happens, it surely is not the end of everything.
Guess I need to just take it easy. After all I didn't have enough sleep last night. I went to bed like past 3:00 in the morning. Terrible. I even kept looking at my cellphone hoping no text messages nor call.
Everything will be okay. Tomorrow will be like the last assessment and well I still hope I'll make it otherwise let's see. One day at a time.

freaking worried

I'm so freaking anxious to know the result of today's assessment. I'm not emotionally ready to lose the job. I'm worried. I know I didn't do well today. Again. But I did try my best though. Luck wasn't on my way I guess.
I hope not to receive any text message or call from SWA tonight nor tomorrow or else I will be in trouble. I don't want to. Ahhh...I'm freaking worried.
I want the job and I just can't afford to find a new one...at least not now.
And guess what? I saw this cat outside the building. They say it's a bad luck if you see a black cat on your way. Oh wait! This one isn't black, is it? Umm... Good sign. Anyway, I'm not a relying-for-luck-kind of person. I still hope for a positive result. Oh, please!
This kitten was actually a bit shy. He or maybe she (I do not know, can't tell either) hid when I was about to take a photo.
I do feel tired right now. I'm sleepy but I just can't seem to sleep. Why all of a sudden I crave to eat more. The not-so-good nor not-so-bad effect of anxieties. I used to lose appetite when I feel bad but seems like it's the other way around tonight. Goodness!
Good thing that Gina and Daisy dropped by the house today. It was so kind of them to cheer me up.
P.S. I put my phone in a silent mode already. I don't want to hear it beeps but still I can't help but check it once in a while. I dread the thought of seeing any text messages there. Hope I will not receive any sms tonight and tomorrow. No text messages/call means no trouble.



my co-trainees with Steve

anxious to know

I'm not quite sure if I'm gonna make it or not. It's not that I don't have a confidence in myself, it's just that I'm open to possibilities. I'm not ready to fail yet and I just don't like the thought that I might not be able to make it. It's just not so me.
Ah, I hope to do better tomorrow. I really don't like the thought of failing. I know it's not my dream job but still I don't want to fail.
Worried.
Anxious.

My swinging mood

I’m disappointed of myself today. I think I’m not doing well in the training and so I disappoint my own self. I’m not being hard on myself I just can’t help feeling bad because maybe I know that I can do better but here I am not even doing the best that I can. I just need to write this down to release the stress and for me to have an outlet of my emotion. Darn it! Huh!
I’m also pissed off today. Darn. I’m annoyed seeing “these girls” here in the house. I can’t even use the Internet because this girl is using the other computer. I’m not just nice you know. Guess I’m just having this not so good time at work. It all started with the disappoint in myself and now everything around me seems annoying.
And I got to get real. Stop the illusion. Wake up and get real. Ah, I need to find something not so nice about him so that I will not like him. Ah, great! **deep sigh**

reality of fear

- You're not scared of the dark.
You're scared of what's inside.

- You're not afraid of heights.
You're afraid of falling.

-You're not afraid of people around you.
You're just afraid of rejection.

-You're not afraid to love.
You're just afraid of not being loved back.

And...

-You're not afraid to try again.
You're just afraid of getting hurt for the same reason.

Right?

random thoughts

I may have lived half of my life already. That's okay, I'm happy though. I may not have achieved much in life, no big achievements to be proud of but I'm happy that I somehow been through different experiences. These may not be extraordinary experiences but I'm happy because I keep on learning and I keep on meeting new acquaintances and friends.
If I'm gonna die right now, I think I will not feel that bad (but it still scares me thinking about my body being buried...that kind of thing...ha ha). Sure there are still so many things that I want to do, places that I want to see, words that I want to hear and say, feelings that I want to show and feel, strangers that I want to be friends with, experiences that I want to experience, roads that I want to travel, songs that I want to hear, and surely I still have a long list of things-I-want-to-do.
So what I'm saying is, it is important that I am happy with what I have right now (though it may not be something big or fancy). I'm happy with the feeling that I get from people around me - my family, my friends, and even those people whom I'm just starting to get to know.
And so I guess my life is not that bad after all. It may just look plain and simple, which most probably is but having a good disposition helps.

- My fear...
I'm scared of getting old because everytime a year added to my life, I feel like lesser opportunities are in store for me. I don't know. I just feel that way.

-I'm not ready...
This may sound silly but I'm not ready yet to just stay in a certain job for good. I'm not ready yet to do this job for the rest of my life. I feel that there are still so many things that I want to give a try. New job that I want to learn. See, this is like my third job already (without counting the one that I had back in October wherein I just stayed there for 2 weeks)

-My jobs back then and now...
* I first worked as a call center agent. I had good days, bad days, and dragging-myself-to-work-moments. I knew I wanted this job because that was what I planned of getting into first. But I didn't last that long in that job. Maybe it was because it's my first job and I was still like getting used to the reality of life. But anyway, I could say I did my job well then.
* When I saw the ad on the newspaper, I knew right away that I would love the job. And honestly I did. So I worked as an online tutor. It was fun and I could say it's one of the most interesting jobs. So I stayed for a couple of years. It was a wonderful experience especially because I felt that I was making a difference in my students' life. I know that somehow, some of them would still remember me. They may forget my name but I know they would still remember the classes that we once had.
I even still have a student who sends me snail mails. It always makes me feel good that some of them still remember me.
I tutored Korean students by the way. It's fun and I learned something about their culture and even made friends with some of them.
And best of all, it is there where I met great friends. I'll always be thankful and glad for that. I had great and happy memories there too.
* When I got myself into this job, it was just like more of a trial. I never really thought that I would love the job and so the result was just a 2-week stay there. I didn't even finish my training there, which is for a month. I stayed for 2 weeks and quitted. It's a sort of an SEO thing (search engine optimizer). I still think it's a good job and a challenging one but for some reasons I had to quit.
* And now, I just finished my first week of training as a conversion agent. So what do I exactly do? I'll tell you once I passed the training...ha ha
I still have another week of training. But so far I'm liking it. It's going to be a new experience for me. I like the people there. They seem nice so far. And the place is fine. Not too fancy but it's perfectly good. And yes, the people are nice and so are the trainers (esp. Steve who's not intimidating and who keeps on making the environment happy as much as possible and he's cute too ;-)

So that's my life so far... Maybe after all it's not that bad...

SWA wave 41(2pm-10pm)

So I never really thought that I would meet these people. So far I'm having fun in the road that I am taking.
I meet new friends and get to know different people. It's fun and I like it.

what's with old age?

Sometimes it's complicated and difficult to deal with "old" co-workers. They sometimes tend to push their ideas even if it's kind of obvious that they are the only one who agrees to it...huh...
I was a bit annoyed during the activity because of this guy who's a bit know-it-all and "maarte".
Anyway, it wasn't such a bad day after all. No worries and I guess I just need to get to know more about them. I'm sure I will not have a difficult time dealing with them.
By the way, I got a call from Tellus this afternoon, I was just glad that the line was staticky so I didn't have to answer their questions.

fun at training

So I'm not really good in coming up with a title for my blog post(um, not even good in writing).
Anyway, the training today was a lot of fun. I bet everyone had a great time too. The training wasn't boring at all. No dull moments. No stressing stuff. Steve was even nice and funny and he got beautiful eyes too:)whoa...
We had this short game before the shift ended and our team won so we got this sweet little chocolate.
And yeah, it's the third day of training.

1st day of training

The day just went fine. The people there are nice and so are the trainers (one is British).
I was just so surprised when I came back home and saw Judy's letter. How thoughtful of her to send me a snail mail. I'm so happy. I think she's really a thoughtful person. She's one of the best students that I ever had.