The best sister

If there's a 'Best Sister Award', I would give it to my sister, Jasmine.
She just left this morning (her flight is at 11 AM) and won't be seeing her in a couple of years. She's always that nice, caring and wonderful sister. So unselfish and super nice. She's the kind who will put you first and who will think about her family first. God bless her.
It feels kinda strange that she's not here. I was on the verge of crying when I said goodbye to her at the airport ( I had this feeling that she also tried to hold back her tears. She tries not to cry and not to let us see whenever she's hurt or when she feels sad because she knows that we'll get worried.) I always try to hold back my tears when it comes to saying goodbye because I know that my tears would also make them sad and would bring tears to them as well.
I sometimes try to be strong but sometimes I just can't. It was kind of a rough day for me today.
When we got back home from the airport I tried not to think of her and had myself watched a movie just to divert my thoughts but well it didn't really work.
When I woke up from a nap this afternoon, I wasn't able to hold back my tears. I was all alone at home (my older sister and her 2 kids went to Church) and when I woke up, I got that feeling of emptiness. I felt so alone. Seemed like my family is so far away, and there's no one to talk to. I felt completely so alone. I never felt that alone in my whole life. I cried hard.
I felt that there's no one to turn to. I can't call up at home and sob on the phone so I just silently cried inside my room (I know this really sound so sissy and mushy to some.)
Been thinking all the times that we shared and it just brings me tears coz she's so far away. God knows how much I love her. Maybe some would think that I'm so sentimental, emotional and childish but I don't really care what they think about me.
Guess a part of me will always be that emotional girl.
If they have a sister like her then they would know how blessed I am.
Words aren't enough to describe how wonderful she is. She's the best. She's the kind who deserves to be loved at all times, to be cared for, to be hold dear and to be blessed.
I miss her now. Till then...