Ana and Sarah

So today is Ana and Sarah's last day in the office. They're two of my good friends in the office. Of course I feel sad that they'll be leaving and I know it would feel strange not seeing them around but I guess that's what life is. You meet friends along the way and sometimes you have to part ways. But the best thing is that you've known each other and been a part of each other's life.
Anyway, I know somehow we'll still be seing each other.
How many of my good friends have already left the job... but well I'm glad to have known all of them.
I'm gonna miss them.

let's travel

Nothing much happened today (as expected, but it wasn't a bad day after all). We're kinda bored at the office so we thought (Ana and I [Abi also joined]) of using our imagination to travel. Yeah, silly you may say but well, it's free!
Wanna experience the summer in Maldives, fall in South Korea, winter in New York and spring in Japan!
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crap

Ok so yesterday wasn't really that bad... What I did was... Hmmm... nothin really... Ok so I was surfing the net during peak hours and well there is this girl(duh) who said I shouldn't be doing it... Crap! Look who's talking! Guess she better check herself first.
She's annoying. I don't like her.
Anyway, Anabelle and I took a walk during our dinner break. It's gonna be her last week in the offcice and I'm happy for her coz I know that she'll be having a different experience and it's like that she's doing something different I guess something that she most likely want to do.
Way to go Ana!

new week

Seemed like the weekend passed just in a snap. Sure, it's gonna be a new week. Hmm... let me see... guess it's gonna be the usual week.
This will be Ana and Sara's last week at work.

The Notebook(movie)

Behind every great love is a great story

I've read the book before but it was only last night when I watched the movie. There was a slight difference between the book and the movie but anyhow it was still a great one.
Great story and I love it.
Some of the quotes that I love ( from: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0332280/quotes)


Young Noah: Get in the water.
Young Allie: No! I'm scared.
Young Noah: [yelling] Get in the water, woman! Get in the water!
Young Allie: [looks at him, puzzled]
Young Noah: [calmly] No I'm sorry baby, please just get in.
Young Allie: [hesitates]
Young Noah: [once his friends start yelling again] GET IN THE WATER!
*** It's one of the scenes that I like especially the look on Noah's eyes when he yelled and suddenly composed himself and tried to speak calmly, my gosh! That was so cute and romantic.


Noah: I am nothing special; just a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who's ever lived: I've loved another with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough.
*** After all life is not about the greatest accomplishments that you've made but the love that you give and you get from the people around you that matters most.


Young Allie: Why didn't you write me? Why? It wasn't over for me, I waited for you for seven years. But now it's too late.
Young Noah: I wrote you 365 letters. I wrote you everyday for a year.
Young Allie: You wrote me?
Young Noah: Yes... it wasn't over, it still isn't over
[kisses Allie]
*** This is such a romantic part and so passionate.


Duke: That's my sweetheart in there. Wherever she is, that's where my home is.
*** Wow! Who wouldn't melt if you heard this line from the person you love?


Young Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's going to be really hard; we're gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me... everyday.
*** That's what you call through good times and bad times.


Allie: Do you think our love can make miracles?
Duke: I do.
*** smile


[last lines]
Allie: Do you think our love, can take us away together?
Duke: I think our love can do anything we want it to.
Allie: I love you.
Duke: I love you, Allie.
Allie: Good night.
Duke: Good night. I'll be seeing you.
*** Got a teary-eye on this part. You know it tells me that true love makes miracle and nothing can come between two people who truly love each other.


Duke: They didn't agree on much. In fact they rarely agreed on anything. They fought all the time and they challenged each other everyday...
Young Noah: [Allie and Noah are fighting] Don't push me!
[Allie pushes Noah anyway]
Duke: ...But in spite their differences, they had one important thing in common, they were crazy about each other.
*** Their craziness for each other was something that is so heart jumping.


Noah: Summer romances begin for all kinds of reasons, but when all is said and done, they have one thing in common. They're shooting stars, a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, fleeting glimpse of eternity, and in a flash they're gone.



Maybe one day I'll also have a beautiful story to tell... a beautiful love story to share :-)

weather

It was kinda hot in the afternoon and then suddenly it seemed like it's gonna rain but the good thing is it didn't rain.
Don't feel the rain these days.
Btw, my sister called me up this afternoon too. Glad to hear from her. :-). Just spent the day at home. Got a lot of chores need to be done.

phone call

Got a phone call from my sister (Jasmine) last night (She knew that I'm still awake even if it's past twelve.) There's a five-hour difference in time between here and there so we chatted for a few moments. I was so happy to hear her voice. Seemed like there are so many things to talk about.
I'm glad she's okay now. I miss her.
We usually chat till the morning (sleeping around 3 Am just chatting). We always have a good laugh together and share stories and jokes. She's wonderful. Truly great! God bless her. :-)
It's Friday and glad about it. Woke up around 11:30 Am these past two days and glad was able to have the will to wake up a bit early (9:30 AM) today.

message from Razel

If Cinderella's glass slippers perfectly fit, why did it fall off along the way?
Maybe it speaks about an important lesson...
"Not everything that perfectly fits, fits forever"

message from Sarah

I'm already taken. Until God brings my future husband along and I know it's him, I'm not available.

Am I called to singleness?
"Well... today I am." :-)

You Belong To Me (Jason Wade)

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I just love listening to this song. I feel like there's something about this song that gives me a wonderful feeling. I just love it. Jason's voice here is so soothing and so lovely.
I like the lyrics too. Never get tired listening to it.

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You Belong To Me (Jason Wade)
see the pyramids around the Nile
watch the sunrise from a tropic isle
just remember darling all the while -
you belong to me

see the marketplace in old Angier
send me photographs and souvenirs
just remember when a dream appears -
you belong to me

and I'll be so alone without you
maybe you'll be lonesome too

fly the ocean in a silver plane
see the jungle when it's wet with rain
just remember till you're home again -
you belong to me

oh I'll be so alone without you
maybe you'll be lonesome too

fly the ocean in a silver plane
see the jungle when it's wet with rain
just remember till you're home again -
you belong to me

another day is gone

Another day passed by... Well nothing much happened. Woke up feeling like my sister has been away for so long(though it was just yesterday when she left). The weather was fine in the morning but it rained in the afternoon.
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The best sister

If there's a 'Best Sister Award', I would give it to my sister, Jasmine.
She just left this morning (her flight is at 11 AM) and won't be seeing her in a couple of years. She's always that nice, caring and wonderful sister. So unselfish and super nice. She's the kind who will put you first and who will think about her family first. God bless her.
It feels kinda strange that she's not here. I was on the verge of crying when I said goodbye to her at the airport ( I had this feeling that she also tried to hold back her tears. She tries not to cry and not to let us see whenever she's hurt or when she feels sad because she knows that we'll get worried.) I always try to hold back my tears when it comes to saying goodbye because I know that my tears would also make them sad and would bring tears to them as well.
I sometimes try to be strong but sometimes I just can't. It was kind of a rough day for me today.
When we got back home from the airport I tried not to think of her and had myself watched a movie just to divert my thoughts but well it didn't really work.
When I woke up from a nap this afternoon, I wasn't able to hold back my tears. I was all alone at home (my older sister and her 2 kids went to Church) and when I woke up, I got that feeling of emptiness. I felt so alone. Seemed like my family is so far away, and there's no one to talk to. I felt completely so alone. I never felt that alone in my whole life. I cried hard.
I felt that there's no one to turn to. I can't call up at home and sob on the phone so I just silently cried inside my room (I know this really sound so sissy and mushy to some.)
Been thinking all the times that we shared and it just brings me tears coz she's so far away. God knows how much I love her. Maybe some would think that I'm so sentimental, emotional and childish but I don't really care what they think about me.
Guess a part of me will always be that emotional girl.
If they have a sister like her then they would know how blessed I am.
Words aren't enough to describe how wonderful she is. She's the best. She's the kind who deserves to be loved at all times, to be cared for, to be hold dear and to be blessed.
I miss her now. Till then...

Friday nights with Friends

Went to Shakey's last night with my friends after our shift. It's nice hanging out with them. How inconsiderate of me not to text my sister and bro that I'll be late that's why there were worried sick and when my mom learned that I was also worried and called me up early in the morning.
My family is just like that. Actually it shows how much they love me coz they care so much about me.
My sister and I talked for hours last night and slept around 4 am.
Went to the mall with my sister (Jasmine) this afternoon. She'll be leaving tomorrow for Bahrain. Guess it would take a couple of years before we could see each other again.

Oh love!

I've learned you can't ask people to love you back.
You got to embrace love as it comes, hold it gently and be happy when it comes to you. There is love that fades and love that remains for eternity.
Love that breaks your heart and love that makes you whole.
Love that makes you smile and love that makes you cry.

Goodbye Heidi...

Heidi went to the office today. It's nice seeing her again. She'll be leaving for Korea tomorrow night and maybe we'll never see each other again.
We didn't talk much. She's busy preparing her papers and everything. I guess it's still good to see her.
I feel like things have changed between us. I don't know but I feel like we've turned into different people.

Looking back in 2007

Year 2007 was I guess a good year for me. It may not be the best year in my life but it's something that I should be thankful of.
Looking back, I guess there weren't really something BIG that happened in that year... anyways, it's still the small things that count.
Met new people, new friends and lose some of them too. Can you really lose a friend?
I guess the answer is YES. Like plants, friends shoud be nurtured. I guess I've never really been a good friend to some.
To Christine who have been my friend since high school - I lose touch with her eventhough she's just around. Maybe I didn't even make a lot of effort to stay in touch with.
2007 was also the year when I met good friends in ILDAEIL though many of them have resigned already. Met Arlene and cried when she left. Cried for some unexpected news like what happened to HEidi. Also met good people like Sally, Monica, Krishna, etc.
I belive I also met good friends online (there's Faith and Herman).
I cried and laughed hard back then. Had sort of loved someone and lose some (haha..sort of... okay guess I liked someone back then - or maybe loved that someone).
Been silly and crazy and been through some problems and worries but was able to get it through.
Don't really know what awaits me this year but as long as there are people who love, believe and support me, I guess life will just be fine.
Till then... :-)

nah

Pretty fine weather. I guess it's kinda hot today but that's better than raining.

wanna run away

This is just one if those days when life seems so depressing... or maybe when I see life so depressing.
I don't know but for some reasons, I'm sickin tired of so many things - my life here in Manila and my job.
I should think positive and be optimistic but I just can't help having this bad feeling right at this moment. I'm tired.
I wanna run away if only I could...
My sister is leaving for Iloilo at 4 pm. Hope she'll be fine. We're worried about her.
Things are torturing me emotionally. Oh my God! I don't know how long I can stay here. Don't wanna stay here for long. Don't want to be stuck here. Oh my!
I'm usually the cheerful and optimistic one but sometimes days make me feel so down...
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sleepy and tired

Went to Quiapo church this morning with my sisters (Jasmine) and (Amy with her two kids).
Was really so sleepy when we got home coz I went to bed so late, around 3:30 AM and woke up around 8:30.
Spent the afternoon sleeping and did the laundry when I woke up. Should have done more today but was sleepy.

not bad

It rained today so I didn't do much. Woke up late and I was surprised on how time flies. Was not really a productive day. Didn't do much.
Stayed home and guess spent much time in front of the pc.
Well, it wasn't a bad day afterall. My sister is still here and I'm so glad about it.

Glad it's Friday!

Glad there's not many students today. I'm kinda tired sometimes.
It's almost another day and I'm happy that tomorrow is Saturday.

Heidi

This is just a usual day and since there's really nothing special goin on, thought of writing something about one of my friends in ILDAEIL - Heidi.
Known her for around a year and 3 months. She's one of the good friends that I met in the office but she has resigned already last December 31st.
I guess Heidi and I have shared good times and bad times. Though we've known each other for quite sometime, there were still some things that we just can't tell to each other.
We applied in China before but for some reasons we didn't continue - I wasn't totally ready to take that kind of challenge to work there and I wasn't so sure. I felt guilty because she depended her decision on me and I felt like I failed her.
Friendship is not just all about good times. I was really hurt when she didn't tell me that she's getting married. I felt betrayed. I felt like she took me for granted. I felt like she didn't trust me. I felt like I'm not her friend that I'm just a stranger who doesn't care what's going on in her life. I was really hurt. I felt so rejected.
What happened was maybe a way for me to realize that I haven't been a good friend to some of my friends too. I admit I've taken some of them for granted.
Maybe sometimes, there are just some things that we can't tell even to our close friends.
Anyway, I believe everything is okay now. I've learned to accept what happened.
I guess it's a good thing too that I was on leave during her last day in the office otherwise, I would just get so emotional. I'm such a crybaby I guess.
Well, life's like that. People just come and go.
Every person that touches our life will somehow leave something, a memory perhaps and lessons that will forever be with us till we walk through this road called life

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talked about death

This afternoon, just of the blue, Sarah and I talked about death. She asked me if I'm scared to die and I told her yes. I'm scared because there are still so many things that I wanna do.
I was very surprised when she said she's "excited" to die. I thought she was just kidding especially because she used the word "excited". Sarah has really a strong faith in God. She's blessed.
We then asked each other what kind of death we prefer. She said, she prefers to die in a bus accident while travelling. I myslef prefer to die in a plane crash. I don't know but even before whenever that kind of question is brought up, I would always have that answer. Maybe if it's a sudden death, you wouldn't feel a lot of pain.
Ana also joined us in our conversation and she said she prefers to die in sickness.
Well, we never really know what lies ahead. Guess we should prepare ourselves and have faith.
Till then...
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nah

Woke up a little bit early today. I went with my sister to change her flight schedule. Glad to spend some more time with her. She'll gave her flight on the 20th of January.
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back to work after a week of vacation

I honestly don't feel like going to work.Still reminiscing the days when I was at home.
Anyway, we have our new team starting today. I am now in Julie's team (team Syracuse). Got new team mates too - Ynah, Ara, Marci and Leslie.
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emo

It’s back to work again. I really feel so lonely today. I still have a hang over about the days I spent at home. I wanna burst into tears thinking about home. I always get this feeling whenever I left home.
All I can do is think of the moments I had back home and how I wish I could rewind those times.
Darn I miss home! I miss my mother, my sisters and my niece. I miss them all. I really feel down right now. I wanna get over this feeling.
It’s a great help that my sister (Jasmine) is here otherwise I might just break down and cry.
Maybe I’ll get over this loneliness is a few days or a week or maybe weeks.
God! I wish I’m home.
The week that I’ve spent at home was great. I always feel wonderful being there. How can I write this feeling that I have? I wanna cry.
I’m worried about my sister too. Hope her hands will get better real soon.
Oh my!
I don’t feel good right now. I know that I’m gonna feel this way after vacation. I just can’t help it.
I wonder when I can get home again. I don’t like it here. I always feel alone and incomplete here.
Oh, God! What am I supposed to do? I need all the courage I can get to face another moment of my life.

Before departure

Attended the 5 AM mass with my mother, sisters, my brother-in-law and my niece. Anyway, we're still scheduled to leave around 7:30 AM.
I tried to hold back my tears as I bid goodbye to my mother, sisters and niece. Got teary eyes and I tried so hard not to burst into tears.
I wasn't able to say much because I'm afraid my voice will tremble and I might just cry.
view from inside the airport - the big land area of farm where the new airport is situated


me and and my sister jaz

me
I'm not happy at all to go back to Manila


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The night before I leave for Manila

My mother woke us up so early and I complained coz it's really way too early (My mom always wants to be early for whatever appointments).
It was around 4 when we got ourselves ready going to Leganes. It takes more than an hour to get there that's why we have to leave early. We thought the mass was at 5 AM but found out that it was at 6 AM. Anyway, it was okay.
In the afternoon, we went to the cemetery. After going to the cemetery, Che-che and I went swimming. Shucks! The water was so cold but we dared to go swimming (technically we just went dipping). We also asked, Maryjane to come with us coz it's kinda dark already.
cheers


it's cold

Well my things are packed now. Oh God! I don't feel like going back to Manila. Feel so lonely thinking about it. If only I could just stay here.
Tonight, my cousin (Nong Romy) brought his "friend" and introduced her to us. Seems like almost everyone is suspicious about her.
Oh well...
Time to go to bed... Don't happy for tomorrow... :(

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hanging around

Went to the city( our house is 45 minutes away from the city) with my sisters - Jaz and Che and with my niece.
Bought some stuff there. It was great and we had fun.

My niece and I


Genelyn Sage





with my sisters(ceres bus)


Sage and I (tired after the trip)




When we came back home, Che che and I decided again to go swimming but it was so cold so we decided not to. We just hang around there for a few minutes then went back home.


with maryjane


che and i at the beach

Thought of getting my hair curled but it didn't work (***sigh***). Che che and I stayed up so late. Had our hair curled for like 6 hours but my oh my! It just didn't work. Maybe it's because of the medicine used.. oh well...
It's past 11:30. Gotta wake up early tomorrow since we have to go to Leganes to attend the mass.

counting the days...

Everyday counts!
The weather is a bit gloomy but thank God it didn't rain. Went to the dentist with my sister. Didn't do a lot of things but well I'm just so happy to be here at home.
It seems like every moment here is so precious.
My younger sister and I planned to go swimming (our house is in the shadow of the beach) but weren't able to do it coz she has to fetch my sister and niece in the city.
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sleepy

I'm kinda worried that my vacation is coming to an end. I'm sad about it. Thinking about going back to Manila makes me lonely. I wanna spend more time here.
Spent most of the time sleeping coz I still feel tired and sleepy
The house is still not in order because it's still being fixed.
Gotta go to bed early - I'm so sleepy. In fact, everyone is asleep already though it's just an hour past 9.
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New Year's Day at home

Had a great New Year's celebration! It was great and special because I spent it with my family. We had a great time. Oh my! I can't explain how great it was to spend New Year at home. Can't find the words to explain the feelings that I have.
It's past 3:30 AM when we went to bed.
I woke up a bit late and still having that familiar feeling at home.
Slept in midday because we still had a hangover of last night's celebration.
It rained in the afternoon but thank God it didn't last long. We again visited my father and grandmpther's tomb in the afternoon.
There's a party on our street at night. It's sort of a New Year's party for children. There were contests and games and children exchanged gifts.
It now became a sort of tradition on the night of January first to have that party. It's pretty fun. My cousin joined the contest and we dressed him like a girl. He actually feel awkward about it but was convinced that it was just for fun. Of course it was just for fun.
My cute lil niece joined the party too and danced with the rest of the children. It seemed like she really enjoyed dancing. Oh My! She's so cute while she danced.
It's so great watching her.
my family

Our Christmas tree


my sisters (Che and Inday)






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