...it's not easy to be me

I remember that song Superman by was it Five for Fighting? Fight For Fighting? Ah I'm lazy to google it.
I'm so confused right now. I am so tickle minded and so indecisive. God I don't know what to do. I want to resign from my job but a part of me doesn't want to. Gosh what am I gonna do. I guess I should list down why I want to say and list down the things and reasons why I want to leave. Um didn't I do that before? Gosh! How many resignation letters have I made already that I haven't passed yet? I made one last Monday then edited it last Tuesday and printed another one today...goodness...so indecisive. I guess I should make one for every day until I get decided and don't get cold feet.

I want to resign because: (in random order)
1. I want to go home.
2. I just can't see myself staying there (in the company) for a long time... for years maybe.
3. I can't save with my salary. It's like it's just enough for my expenses and stuff like that.
4. I want to give it a try in other companies.
5. I want to do something that I can be proud of myself something like I can say I have achieved something and maybe I'll make it if I will venture and find where I belong.
6. If I think about the future I wonder how long the company will be there. Well I guess it is stable and doing fine even this time of recession.
7. I want to try working related in my field of study (but I lack confidence because I haven't done it ever since I graduated from univ)


I don't want to resign because: (in random order)
1. It's kinda tiring to start anew... undergoing a new training, adjusting with the environment and people and even time.
2. I feel somehow comfortable there already with good friends around.
3. The "open" OT sounds good.
4. If I will go home and find a job there I'm still not ready to just settle there for good. I like going home but I'm still not interested in working there (Iloilo).


I'm still so undecided. One moment I'm sure then another moment I'm not. Oh girl!
Help! I need advice.