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My brother(Junju) went back to Manila.
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cousins and niece

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my cousin and her baby

little christmas tree

seashell

ice cream

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nowhere

Back again after weeks of being nowhere and I must say I'm still out of nowhere. Been keeping this blog for quite sometime and even wrote some stuff during the days that I couldn't connect to the net but darn, I lost all the stuff that I wrote..hmp..too bad.
I really don't know what I'm here for and why I am writing this stuff. Maybe I just need a place to burst out all the feelings that I have inside... ummm... random thoughts...
Ah, sometimes I feel like I'm wasting my life. I feel like my life has no direction. What am I supposed to do?
I'm worried about my future ( I know I should cherish the present but I just can't help thinking what lies ahead.)
I feel disappointed of my life, myself. God! I just.. I just don't know what to do. I'm scared of wasting my life and scared that the day will come that I will totally regret the things that I haven't done and the opportunities that I have wasted. I know the problem is me.
I still hope for a better tomorrow... hope that better things are coming my way.

all saints' day/all souls' day

i have to...

i said: got held up and can't report to the office
fact: I quit
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in costume

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Working on a graveyard shift sucks but I find it pretty nice going home at 5 AM. I guess that's the only thing I like when working on a night shift. The time that I go out of the office is very early in the morning and having an early bus trip home.
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hang on...

I really don't like working on a graveyard shift. I guess it sucks. I wonder how long I can stand it.
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rose

Miag-ao

a bit bored

I guess I'm still liking the training though I admit it's pretty boring. How I wish there's a real interaction during the training not just watching the training video clips all day long.
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1st day of training

It's the first day of training. The day didn't turn out bad. It was just okay.

gee

I've been trying to figure out what to write but I just can't seem to find the right words.
I feel like my life is a flop. lately, I feel like I'm taking a road to nowhere and I just can't help but feel sorry for myself. I'm an optimistic person but at times the dark clouds block my sunlight, making me gloomy and hopeless.
Do I hate myself? I do at times. I hate myself for not knowing what I want. I hate myself for not knowing how to really live my life.I hate myself for being uncertain in my decisions. I hate myself for making my life complicated.
Oh dear! I want to cry. I just hate myself for being like this.
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job interview

I had my interview today in VAT (Virtual Assistant Tech). I got the job and my training will start on the 20th.
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hmp..

I'm the most complicated person I've ever known. I just can't make up my mind on what I want and what I need to do...too bad for me I guess. I'm back in Iloilo again. I'm not sure if I'm making the right decision but for now I think it's a better decision. I'm not really that happy about it but maybe it's not that bad after all. I just hate being like this.
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getting out of the usual

Few days ago I was in dilemma (and I guess I still am). Should I follow what my heart tells me or should I be practical and follow my head?
You see I'm indecisive... all right soooo indecisive.
It's not that I'm leaving my life to chances. Maybe I'm thinking too much about the future that it leaves me in a hopeless and confusing situation.
I don't know if I'm making the right decision right now. I should give it a try. I don't want to go through my life wondering "what if".
For like two years, I felt like my life was so monotonous. But it wasn't that bad actually. I wasn't fed up yet but sometimes I have to make a decision even if I'm unsure about it.
I have regrets about the decisions that I made but I don't want to hold on to it forever. I don't know where this road will take me this time but I do hope that it's something that will lead me to become a better person.
I'm leaving the life that I've known in Manila for a while. I'm going back to the place where my heart is and see what lies ahead for me there.
I will never ever know what I become there unless I will give it a try. Anyway, I can always come back and venture again.
I need to give up something so I can try something different. No more IWP.
Just like in the music of my life... whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there with open eyes and open arms...

so confuse!!!

I don't know if I should follow my heart or follow my head. I'm not talking about relationship but I'm talking about decision-making. See, it's one of my weaknesses. I'm indecisive and I just hate being one...ahhhh!!!

get real

He's an illusion
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Unreal
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A dream
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A fantasy
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Not for real

i wish...

I wish I know what I really want...

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Batchoy

"Batchoy" is one of the famous Ilonggo delicacies. It's a noodle soup with chicharon, pork/beef liver, meat and spices. Best eaten with puto (like a rice cake)
This one is from Deco's.
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I miss my niece

(photos were taken in the morning before I leave for Manila)
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that witch!

I just hate her, my sisters hate her, my mother doesn't even like her. We simply don't like that Nika gurl. The nerve!!!!!

tripping

Went on a day tripping today. My sister and I went with my brother to look for a house to buy.
Phew... I'm so exhausted!!!

so annoying

Went to BIR Taguig today to request for my T.I.N. ID but I dealt with this complicated and annoying BIR employee before my request was finally settled...but too bad it will be released after a month...hmp

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leaving again

Arrived in Manila today after almost a month in Guimbal. It sure was not easy for me. I always hate... always hate the feeling of leaving. Always hate the overflowing emotion. No one told me to do it... I just did. For what? Just wanted to be faraway, to long for the feeling of loneliness, to face the reality of life, and to seek for something strange and different.
Maybe I'm not totally happy with my decision. I don't know. Maybe there's a reason...
I'm tired... tired of crying... My head feels like breaking... I need to rest. Maybe tomorrow everything will be okay...

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Sage's 2nd Birthday

It's Gen-gen's 2nd birthday!!!
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just photos

sister's bday

Happy birthday, Nang Pet!!!

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To trust is to risk... sometimes we get what we don't expect. But that's just how it is to trust...
we simply have to give...
not knowing what to take

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eye check up

Had my eye check up today and I'm so relieved to know that there's nothing wrong with my eyes. Thank God.
...okay so the doctor was really nice :D

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Manang Amy

It's my sister's birthday!

Happy birthday!

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text

What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.

- Ralph Waldo Emerson

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photos

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day care center

A day in a day care center.

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birthday/revelation

Today is my sister's (Helen) birthday.
I was also so surprised when a friend(J.S.) of mine admitted to me about his feelings for me...oops...
He's nice and sweet but I just don't think a relationship with him will work. Besides, I don't think I see him more than a friend...

photos photos photos

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Sage's first day in school

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My mother's birthday

Happy Birthday Nanay!!! We love you so much!!!

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My sister (che-che) and I went to the city today. I've been bragging her to apply for a job and we're both hoping she'll get a positive response.

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first mass

Woke up early today to attend the 5 AM mass with my family.

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chillin out