that moment...

Ever felt like you're sickin' tired and that you don't want to think about tomorrow coz you know that everything would be the same and you'd be doing the same thing over and over and you wondered about your purpose and you felt kinda lost and when you go to bed at night you felt so tired and you're slowly drifted away to the darkness of the night while the TV was on and you waited for the TV show that you wanted to watch but there's no way to watch it because there's something wrong with the cable connection and since you're used of having the TV on while in bed you decided to watch a video instead and you selected a horror movie something like 28Weeks Later and because you're using VCD (leave alone your DVD is broken) you almost had your eyes closed before the first disc is finished and you realized you were so sleepy and for a moment you actually fallen asleep and then you woke up and it's time to change the disk but you were convinced that you're sleepy so you decided to turn off the TV and you heard your phone "meow" (because that's your message alert tone) and you saw that it was from your friend whom you asked to go to the mall tomorrow but her reply was so late so you just thought of reading it in the morning and then you went back to sleep again but... walla... you're not as sleepy as you thought you were and so you turned on the TV again and checked if the cable connection was okay already but unfortunately it's still the same so you just decided to finish the second disc and you continued watching it and there you really realized that you're sleepiness has gone away and the movie ended but still you're wide awake and so you drank a glass of water and checked out if the TV in the living room has a good cable connection but again there's none and so you went back to bed and thought of reading the text message that you received earlier and your friend agreed of meeting you tomorrow and that you'll just text each other and you received another text message from another friend and she said that your other friend texted her and she was touched by the thoughtfulness of her and the not-so-good-memories that you had with that friend of yours flashed back and you can't help but cry remembering the hurts that she once caused because you felt she didn't trust you and that she took you for granted and then you couldn't help those tears from falling and you asked yourself questions and how you wished there's someone really listening to you, a friend probably but they just couldn't hear you so you talked to God and you knew that He's listening and somehow you tried to stop crying afraid that someone might see your swollen eyes in the morning and then you just didn't know and you've drifted into the abyss of the night...
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