missy missing

I miss this site. I miss writing stuff here. I don't often go to this site lately especially when I'm here at home. Well it's because I don't miss a lot of things here. But I miss working now. I miss going to the office. I miss my job.

have to make this project for my nephew

out for lunch

a good morning

It was a peaceful morning in spite of the bad weather that we're supposed to experience - heavy rain and strong wind. Anyway we don't have any storm signal so that explains it, just a not-so-sunny-day. I brought my niece with me and off we went to the beach. It was terrible to see the garbage that was scattered on the shoreline - dried twigs (which I think is just typical), plastics were scattered here and there.
There were these two kids who were enjoying playing on the sand. I asked the little girl (Ella - I've known her before) what she's doing and she told me that she's making a pool. A swimming pool that's what she said if I'm not mistaken, which looks more like a tiny well for me.
It was quite a beautiful morning in spite of the scraps that were scattered. I think the sea has some charm that despite of the mess in this world it can still give you that serenity deep inside. With the wind blowing and the sound of the waves breaking as it approaches the shoreline I'm still thankful for the world where I am in.




It rained a few minutes after we left the beach and my niece and I felt soaking in the rain.

lying on the sand

the rose

Sage's 3rd bday

one cozy afternoon

this time a month ago

It's been a month ago since my appendectomy. It was a terrible experience. The many of my firsts. My first time to b really admitted in the hospital. My first time to have a major surgery. I was scared when I found out that I have appendicitis. Of course it's a big deal to me.
When I was holding my ultrasound result stating that I have ruptured appendicitis I even made myself believe that it's not true that I was not seeing those words there. I still remember how my sister and my mother told me to pack my things and we'll go to the hospital. They had a bit of a difficult time convincing me to go. I admit that I even expect for a miracle even when I was lying in the emergency room waiting to have my surgery scheduled at 5pm. I kept on hoping that the doctor was not right that there was just something wrong. I even had a little argument with the nurse and the doctor. I told them to double check it,telling them all those "what ifs" that i can think of but finally my surgeon told me that I need to have a surgery immediately. And so there it goes.
I'm scared of hospital and worst being the patient. I covered my eyes as they brought me to the surgery room and didn't dare to look at the place.
It was difficult especially after the operation. I didn't have water even a sip of it for 24 hours and I felt that a drop of it would be like heaven.
I'm so thankful for my family cos they were all there for me. They took turn looking after me.

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sage

in the field

SWA (Scopeworks Asia)

Another chapter is over and a new one is about to begin. Even if my stay in SWA was so short but I had fun and I enjoyed my stay there. Right from the training until my last day was a good one. There maybe some not so good times (which I believe is inevitable) but the experience working there and the good friends that I left there as well as the memories are all worth it.
I admit that I somehow regret leaving my job there but I'm hoping everything will be ok.
I will miss the "spice girls", our "barkada" break and dinner. I will miss Net's jokes (though it's corny at times hahaha). I will miss Cel's story telling. Good thing she has a lot of stories and experiences to share while killing time during idle hours. I will miss MJ's wisdom. I bet she's a wide reader. I will miss Ressi's enthusiasm. And of course Mara's "husky" voice. I was lucky to have nice team mates and team leader.
Too bad I will not see Mr Cute guy (C,J). I like his eyes. He has a pretty face actually.
So anyway I'll be going home in a few hours. My flight is at 6:00am and I gotta leave at 3am. My brother will accompany me to the airport. And I'm excited to see my niece, Sage and of course my family back there. I hope my mother and I will not have any skirmish because of this leech!
Anyway hope everything will be alright.
Till then... I hope I can start on June 15th in Convergys even if I haven't submitted my requirements yet. Well till then.

last day in SWA

Today is my last day in Scopeworks. I feel sad leaving my job but I have to stand on the decision that I made. One of my team mates (the cute guy in our team, my so-called crush) asked why I'm leaving and asked me if he can have my ID (for remembrance? if only i can give it to him -ahem-) but of course I can't give it to him cos I need to surrender it back. I kinda like him actually. Anyway no big deal. I guess I don't mean anything to him. That's ok. He's still cute though. :D
If only I didn't resign then I will be assigned to GB account. I even got UK queue I guess from 7:30pm until the end of my shift the reason why no messages were coming to my account. So I just sat, did nothing but wait for the end of the shift.

don't wanna think about tomorrow

Gosh there seem like so many things that's going on in my mind right now but I just can't explain those things. Feelings and emotions that I'm trying to avoid because they confuse me and darn it.
I miss someone today. There was this guy in the office which I just happen to only notice today a.k.a "Edward" yeah he can be the version of Edward you know the vampire guy from Twilight but actually he more like reminds me of Kalil. He's cute. Now I miss him. Silly me. I wonder how he is right now. I do miss him. I wonder if he'll ever get in touch, most probably not anymore. He has no reason to.
My life is pretty dull but it's not that bad just boring and plain.
I sometimes wonder what I am here for. Don't we exist for a purpose? What am I here for?
I somehow stopped thinking about the future. Just wanna live the present. But isn't it important to think of the future too? But then it's uncertain and what if today is just the end of my day? No more tomorrow or future... but I guess both still exist. Ah whatever...
I'm a wandering soul...