nah

My sister’s husband arrived from Qatar.
[o@tm]

huh

Guess it's not really surprising when I go to bed so late. And last night or should I say early this morning I went to bed quarter before five. And the culprit? The Lost Room, which was aired in Star Movies. I watched the first part so I decided to watch all the parts as well and so I ended up watching TV till the dawn breaks.
I love that movie mini-series.
...
I didn't do much today. The weather is just getting so hot and even if I want to sleep till noon time I just can't coz it gives me headache...geez...

My cellphone has been useful today. Called home twice and my mother also called me up earlier tonight. Sometimes we just have this "same conversation" but then it still feels good.

Went to Landmark this afternoon and I bought the video Love Actually.
Might go to sleep early tonight. Guess I haven't gotten enough sleep today..

I Am Sam

Memorable quotes from IMDb
Lucy: All you need is love.

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Rita: Sam, I can go at least another nine rounds, but you got to let me in.

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Lucy: [being observed] I want no other daddy but you.
[turns to the glass]
Lucy: [shouts] Did you hear that? I said I didn't want any other daddy but him. Why don't you write that down?

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Rita: It's like every morning I wake up and I FAIL!


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Sam: YOU'RE MY LAWYER!
Rita: That's right.
Sam: OKAY!

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Sam: You think what they think.
Rita: It doesn't matter what I think. It matters that we win.
Sam: No, you think what they think. You think Sam can't take care of Lucy!
Rita: Sam, it doesn't matter what I think!
Sam: It matters to me!

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Sam: You're going a little faster than everybody else. I was wondering if you noticed that.

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[Sam buys a "preowned" answering machine]
Ifty: Yeah. It's an outgoing message so I think you need to sound a little more outgoing.

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Lucy: Daddy, did God made for you to be like this or was it an accident?
Sam: Ok, what do you mean?
Lucy: I mean you're different.
Sam: But what do you mean?
Lucy: You're not like other daddies.
Sam: I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Yeah, I'm sorry.
Lucy: It's ok, daddy. It's ok. Don't be sorry. I'm lucky. Nobody else's daddy ever comes to the park.
Sam: Yeah! Yeah! Yeah, we are lucky. Aren't we lucky? Yeah!

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[in Rita's car]
Rita: On the Porsche the door handle is a little hidden by that thingamajig, so if you're having trouble finding it...
Annie: NO!
Sam: Ok, I think maybe Annie's not exactly ready to go yet.

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Rita: Can you grasp the concept of manipulating the truth... not lying, just a little tweak here and there?
Sam: [thinks for a few seconds] No.

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Sam: Yeah, but I tried, I tried hard.
Rita: Try harder!
Sam: Yeah, but you don't know, you don't know!
Rita: I don't know WHAT?
Sam: Yeah, you don't know what is like when you try, and you try, and you try, and you try, and you don't ever get there! Because you were born perfect and I was born like this, and you're perfect!
Rita: Oh, is that right?
Sam: People like you don't know...
Rita: People like me?
Sam: People like you don't know what is like to get hurted. Because you don't have feelings. People like you don't feel anything!

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Rita: [pounding her hands] Sam, you gotta be firm on this.

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Sam: You've grown.
Lucy: Have I?
Sam: Yeah, 'cause your ears are bigger and your eyes are older.

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Rita: Sam, I worry. I worry sometimes.
Sam: Yeah... do you worry that you did something wrong?
Rita: No. I worry that I've gotten more out of this relationship than you.

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Rita: It's just... I've never lost at anything.

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Rita: Now, Ms. Cossell, in all the time that you've known them, have you ever questioned Sam's ability as a father?
Annie: Never.
Rita: Never?
Annie: Never. Look at Lucy. She's strong. She displays true empathy for people, all kinds of people. I know that you all think she's as smart as she is despite him, but it's because of him.
Rita: So what you're saying is you don't worry about Lucy's future?
Annie: No, I do.
Rita: Ah...
Annie: I worry all the time. I worry if they take Lucy away from her father they will take away an enormous piece of her, and I worry that she will spend the rest of her life trying to fill that hole.

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Lucy: I won't read the word!
Sam: I'm your father and I'm telling you to read the word. Cause I can tell you to because I'm your father.
Lucy: I'm stupid.
Sam: You are not stupid!
Lucy: Yes, I am.
Sam: No, you are not stupid 'cause you can read that word.
Lucy: I don't wanna read it if you can't.
Sam: No, because it makes me happy! It makes me happy hearing you read. Yeah, it makes me happy when you're reading.
Lucy: [Lucy reads again]

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Conner Rhodes: Are you a retard too?
Lucy: No!
Conner Rhodes: How do you know?
Lucy: Because he told me.
Conner Rhodes: But he's a retard!
Lucy: It takes one to know one.


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Joe: Do we get a balloon with these?
Shoe Salesman: ...Yeah
Robert: All of us or just her?

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Conner Rhodes: Why does your father act like a retard?
Lucy: He is.

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Lucy: Why are men bald?
Sam: Sometimes they're bald because their head is shiny and they don't have hair on it. So their head is just more of their face.

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Brad: I think you should sound like, a normal person... from the heart! From... the... heart!
Ifty: From the heart
Sam: This argh okay hello thank you for calling this is Saaaaaaaam
Ifty: Wow!
Brad: I feel that was a very thouching moment right there.
Ifty: I, I, I, I felt that one
Sam: High five!
All: High five!

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Sam: OK, remember when Paul McCartney wrote the song "Michelle" and then he only wrote the first part, Annie said. And then he gave that part to John Lennon, and he wrote the part that said, "I love you, I love you, I love you." And Annie said that it wouldn't have been the same song without that... and that's why the whole world cried when the Beatles broke up on April 10, 1970.

breaking the old routine...

Went to Power Books today to meet Ara and Jam. Well it's nice to break the old routine once in a while.
Ara and Jam are nice people to hang out with. As what we've planned before, we walked from Power Books to the office (I guess that's around 15 minutes of walk).
And I'm sad that Jam is resigning. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh....I say the office will not be the same again without her.
I will miss her. She's such a wonderful friend and she's always cheerful.
It's sad to know that many of my friends are leaving. Gosh! I'm always left behind.
It's always them saying goodbye. It's just so sad. Hope I can turn the table around...

Chatted with my high school classmate (Reynan) this afternoon. He might be working in ILDA as well. Guess that's surprising and weird. Who would have thought that we'll be working on the same company?
I bet my high school classmates will be surprised if they know about it...lol
[o@tm]

morning phone call

How nice to start a day receiving a phone call from my mother!
Of course, I love it when she gives me a ring rather than the other way around..haha... well it's because it's making me feel that she wants to hear my voice and that she misses me.
Anyway, I always make it a point to call home at least once a week.

and...
I want to meet Jamila and Ara in Power Books this morning and walk our way to the office but I woke up late and there's still things to do here so I can't leave the house early.
Hopefully I can go there tomorrow for a change.

City of Angels

Npt really my favorite but guess it's a nice one too.

Memorable Quotes from IMDb

Susan: What good would wings be if you couldn't feel the wind on your face?

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Maggie Rice: I'm not afraid. When they ask me what I liked best, I'll tell them, it was you.

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Maggie Rice: Those eyes. The way he looked... right down into me.

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Maggie Rice: Got a message for me?
Seth: I already gave it to you.
Maggie Rice: Did you use my pager? I usually don't get my messages unless you beep me.
Seth: You've definitely been beeped.

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Cassiel: To smell the air.
Seth: Taste water.
Cassiel: Read a newspaper.
Seth: To lie.
Cassiel: Through your teeth.
Cassiel: To feed the dog.
Seth: Touch her hair.
Cassiel: What are you waiting for?

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Maggie Rice: I wait all day, just hoping for one more minute with you, and I don't even know you.

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Seth: I came to take Mr. Balford... and I saw you. I couldn't take my eyes off you. How you fought for him. And you looked right at me... like I was a man.

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Seth: I was there in the stairwell... when you cried for your patient. And I touched you. Why are you doing this? Because I'm in love with you.

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Maggie Rice: Are you here? I want to see you. Let me see you. Just stay. Just stay until I fall asleep.

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Maggie Rice: I don't understand a God who would let us meet, if we could never be together.

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Seth: I fell.
Ann: Evidently. Off a train?
Seth: I fell in love. Please help me find her.

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Maggie Rice: Do you feel that?
Seth: Yes.
Maggie Rice: And that? How's it feel? Tell me what it feels like.
Seth: I can't.
Maggie Rice: Try.
Seth: Warm. Aching.
Maggie Rice: It's okay. We fit together.
Seth: I know.
Maggie Rice: We were made to fit together.


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Seth: I always asked the dying what they liked best about living. Wrote it down in my book. This is it. This is what I like best.

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Maggie Rice: We have our whole lives together. You and me. Mr. and Mrs. Plate.

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Seth: To touch you... and to feel you. To be able to hold your hand right now. You know what that means? Do you know how much I love you?

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Seth: You're a good doctor.
Maggie: How do you know?
Seth: I have a feeling.
Maggie: Yeah, well that's pretty flimsy evidence.
Seth: Close your eyes. Just for a second... what am I doing?
Maggie: You're... touching me.
Seth: How do you know?
Maggie: Because, I feel it.
Seth: You should trust that. You don't trust it enough.

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Seth: Hello Maggie! It's nice to see you again.
Maggie Rice: It's weird to see you again.
Seth: Weird is nice.


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Seth: Let's go.
Maggie: Where?
Seth: Anywhere.
Maggie: What'll we do?
Seth: Anything.

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Maggie: Something happened in that room. I got this jolt that... something bigger is out there. Something bigger than me, bigger than you. Does that sound crazy?

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Maggie: Why do you wear the same clothes all the time? Why won't you give me your phone number? Are you married?
Seth: No.
Maggie: Are you homeless?
Seth: No.
Maggie: Are you a drummer?

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Seth: What's that like? What's it taste like? Describe it like Hemingway.
Maggie Rice: Well, it tastes like a pear. You don't know what a pear tastes like?
Seth: I don't know what a pear tastes like to you.
Maggie Rice: Sweet, juicy, soft on your tongue, grainy like a sugary sand that dissolves in your mouth. How's that?
Seth: It's perfect.

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Seth: I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss from her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it. One.

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Seth: Some things are true whether you believe in them or not.

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Maggie: What happened?
Seth: Free will.

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Nathaniel Messinger: [to Seth] I can't see you, but I know you're there.

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Seth: The little girl asked if she could be an angel.
Cassiel: They all want wings.
Seth: I never know what to say.
Cassiel: Tell them the truth. Angels aren't human. We were never human.
Seth: What if I just make her a little pair of wings out of paper?

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Seth: Why do people cry?
Maggie: What do you mean?
Seth: I mean... what happens physically?
Maggie: Well... umm... tear ducts operate on a normal basis to lubricate and protect the eye and when you have an emotion they overreact and create tears.
Seth: Why? Why do they overreact?
Maggie: [pause] I don't know.
Seth: Maybe... maybe emotion becomes so intense your body just can't contain it. Your mind and your feelings become too powerful... and your body weeps.

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Nathaniel Messinger: Seth knows no fear, no pain, no hunger, he hears music in the sunrise. But he'd give it all up, he loves you that much
Maggie Rice: I don't understand
Nathaniel Messinger: He can fall, he can give up eternity and become... one of us, human

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Maggie: Are you a visitor? Who are you visiting?
Seth: You.

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Nathaniel Messinger: Listen, kid: he gave these bozos the greatest gift in the universe - you think he didn't give it to us, too?
Seth: Which gift?
Nathaniel Messinger: Free will, brother. Free will.

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Maggie Rice: We fight for people’s lives, right?
Maggie Rice: Do you ever wonder who it is we're fighting with?


[o@tm]

dear noone

Dear Noone,
Why does it hurt when someone I care and love goes away? Ah! It's because they're part of me. I feel like I'm always left behind. I admit I feel sad about it. Darn, I hate this feeling.
And do you know how it feels like when you want to talk about how you feel but then there seems no one that you can talk about it but this freaking PC?
Ah! Silly!
Maybe I'm not the kind who openly reveal or talk about their feelings with just anyone else(and what do I think I'm doing?).
Sometimes I just wanna cry and I cry...
If someone goes away and I cry that's because I care for that person. Maybe some of my friends don't care for me as much as I care for them but then that doesn't stop me from feeling sad when they're away. I may not be the best friend one can have but I care for them. I miss them and I miss a part of me.

And to Anabelle who's been a good friend, hope we can see each other again someday. I learned a lot from you and I wish you nothing but what your heart desires.
Reach for your star. I hope you'll reach your dreams.

steak stew?

I made a so-called 'Steak Stew'. My first time to make it. Anyway, the taste wasn't bad. Actually I think it's good. Got my two friends tasted it and they said it's good.

[o@tm]

and so I did it...

So it was just last night when I'm thinking about death and now, well now I got my new hairstyle...not really new just thought of doing something with my hair coz I always feel having a bad hair day.
I actually wanted to have my hair curled but just can't make up my mind and I'm thinking that it might just disappoint me just like the last time that I had one. Anyway, so here it is!
Sometimes the more I think hard on what decision to make, the more I get confuse and sooooooooo undecided. Well, so far I'm feeling better with my hair...hahaha... but I'm not that impress yet by what the hairdresser did. Maybe after a couple of days, I'll see if he did great on my hair.
Why am I talking about a dead thing? Just like my hair. It's a dead thing already but yet I'm trying to make it alive.
Anyway, let's admit it, beauty is skin deep but somehow it feels good too to look pretty on the outside.
Actually these past few days I was thinking of something to do with my hair but I just can't find the right timing to go to the saloon. This afternoon was not really a good timing though but I was convinced by my sister to have my hair done (she also had her hair done actually).
Anyway enough about it.
I'm glad I attended the mass this afternoon. It's Easter Sunday and I don't wanna miss the mass. There were just these distracting kids though sitting besid me. Anyway, my plan was to attend the mass in Greenbelt but then the mass was already over when I came and I heard that the next mass will be in a couple of hours so I decided to buy some groceries in Landmark and headed back home.
Well actually those were the stuff that I did today.
That's it. There's still one video that I want to watch tonight - I Am Sam since I finished City of Angels last night.
Till tomorrow I guess. :-)

Am I A Fireman Yet??

(forwarded message from Razel)

In Phoenix , Arizona , a 26-year-old mother stared down at her 6 year old son, who was dying of terminal leukemia.

Although her heart was filled with sadness,she also had a strong feeling of determination. Like any parent, she wanted her son to grow up & fulfill all his dreams. Now that was no longer possible.

The leukemia would see to that. But she still wanted her son's dream to come true.

She took her son' s hand and asked, 'Billy, did you ever think about what you wanted to be once you grew up? Did you ever dream and wish what you would do with your life?'
Mo mmy, 'I always wanted to be a fireman when I grew up.'

Mom smiled back and said, 'Let's see if we can make your wish come
true.'

Later that day she went to her local fire Department in Phoenix , Arizona , where she met Fireman Bob, who had a heart as big as Phoenix

She explained her son's final wish and asked if it might be possible to give her 6 year-old son a ride around the block on a fire eng ine.

Fireman Bob said, 'Look, we can do bett er than that. If you'll have your son ready at seven o'clock
Wednesday morning, we'll make him an honorary
Fireman for the whole day. He can come down to the fire station, eat with us, go out on all the fire calls, the whole nine yards! And if you'll give us his sizes, we'll get a real fire uniform for him, with a real fire hat - not a toy --
one-with the emblem of the Phoenix Fire Department on it, a yellow slicker like we wear and rubber boots.'

'They're all m anufactured right here in Phoenix , so we can get them fast.'

Three days later Fireman Bob picked up Billy, dressed him in his uniform and escorted him from his hospital bed to the waiting hook and ladder truck.

Billy got to sit on the back of the truck and help steer it back to the fire station.

He was in heaven.

There were three fire calls in Phoenix that day and Billy got to go out on all three calls.

He rode in the different fire engines, the Paramedic's' van, and even the fire chief's car.

He was also videotaped for the local news program.

Having his dream come true, with all the love and attention that was lavished upon him, so deeply touched Billy, that he lived three months longer than any doctor thought possible.

One night all of his vital signs began to drop dramatically and the head nurse, who believed in the hospice concept - that no one should die alone, began to call the family members to the hospital.

Then she remembered the day Billy had spent as a Fireman, so she called the Fire Chief and asked if it would
be possible to send a fireman in uniform to the hospital to be with Billy as he made his transition.

The chief replied, 'We can do better than that. We'll be there in five minutes.
Will you please do me a favor? When you hear the sirens screaming and see the lights flashing, will you announce over the PA system that there is not a fire?'

'It's the department coming to see one of its finest members one more time. And will you open the window to his room?'

About five minutes later a hook and ladder truck arrived at the hospital and extended its ladder up to Billy's third floor open window------ --
16 fire-fighters climbed up the ladder into Billy's room.

With his mother's permission, they hugged him and held him and told him how much they LOVED him.


With his dying breath,
Billy looked up at the fire chief and said, 'Chief, am I really a fireman now?'

'Billy, you are, and the Head Chief, Jesus, is holding your hand,' the chief said

With those words, Billy smiled and said, 'I know, He's been holding my hand all day, and the angels have been singing..'

He closed his eyes one last time.


This story is powerful and there is nothing
Uplifting stories are one of the best gifts we receive.
There is no cost, but a lot of rewards, let's
Continue to uplift one another

Good Friday

It feels strange walking down the street seeing less traffic and the places that once were packed with people are now on a holiday too.
Almost all stores are closed. It's like 98% of stores are closed and it just feels so strange. It's strange but somehow it gives a good feeling walking down the street freely - free from the hullabaloo and hurly-burly of the city life.

Maundy Thursday

I think Maundy Thursday is one of the most observed seasons amongst Filipino people. Most of the establishments and offices are closed.
Some people make it a time for vacation or reunion while others do penance.
I say our company is one of those very few who have work even on occasion like this. If I'm not here, I'm most likely in the province. For me there's no better way celebrating the Holy Week than in the province - it's the best place for me.
I remember, my family usually goes to church on Maundy Thursday and there's a religious procession around the town.
At night time, the plaza and the town is packed with people both young and old.
Maundy Thursday is one of my most awaited seasons especially when I'm in the province.
I haven't truly experienced how people celebrate the Holy Week here coz I always have work on Holy Week.
Anyway, the day doesn't seem so ordinary because everywhere you look, most stores are closed and there are less traffic than usual.
How I missed the old times in Guimbal. It's been two years already since I haven't spent my Holy Week at home.
I missed it and I wish I could be there.
[o@tm]

just a thought

Never let anyone makes you feel that you don't deserve what you want.
You are worthy of your happiness.
What they say don't change anything, it doesnt change you unless you let it.

(text message from Joy)
[o@tm]

untitled

Yesterday was Leslie's birthday and she treated us with yummy tuna pasta. Abi was the one who cooked it and it was really yummy.
Today is my brother's birtday.
Three people in my family are celebrating their birthday this March.

My Life Without Me

I love this movie!
Watching the movie makes me feel that it's not really that bad if you know when your time will end.
This movie makes me realize that maybe you can do many things and actually enjoy your life while your time is ticking.
In the movie, Ann, a 23-year old mother learns that she has a cancer. She makes a "things to do before dying."
There is a scene where Ann is recording birthday greetings for her two daughters till their 18th birthday and I think it's a good idea. That scene inspires me and for a moment, for that very moment I'm excited about the idea of dying so that I can also do the same. Silly? Yeah, I guess so.
Ummm. I want to have my "things to do before I die" list too. I think it's nice. Maybe I'm just out of my senses....anyway...
Maybe one day, if ever I find out that my time is running out, I'll be braver. I'll rather die first before my loved ones.


So, going back to the movie, there are many scenes that I love.
* In the laundry shop, Lee watches Ann sleeping.
I think that's really so sweet.Okay, so I maybe corny and mushy but well, that was really so sweet for a guy to do that...lol

* There is also this scene when Lee and Ann dance and they are just adorable.

* And also the scene in the car when Ann screams because Lee won't kiss her. I think that was cute and funny.

* And of course when Ann is recording messages for her family, that's really touching.

* The scene when Lee and Ann are waiting for Ann's husband to pick her up and Lee delivers his line. Gosh! That's heart breaking.

I think choosing between two people you love is the hardest decision in life. You can't have them both and it's so heartbreaking because both deserve to be loved and no matter what you do, you know that you'll be hurting the other person.


Memorable Quotes from IMDb
Ann: If you don't kiss me right now I'm gonna scream.
[She screams, he kisses her]
Lee: If you don't kiss me right now, I'm gonna fucking scream.
[She kisses him]

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Ann: Alone. You're alone. You've never been so alone in your whole life.

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Lee: Hey.
Ann: Hi.
Lee: My body hurt thinking you weren't gonna come.
Ann: I wasn't gonna come.
Lee: Well, I'm glad you did.

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Dr. Thompson: Dying is not as easy as it looks, you know, but there's no need for you to have to feel terrible all the time.

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Ann's Mother: It's my birthday. Wish me happy birthday.
Ann: Happy birthday, Mom.

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Ann: No-one's normal, Mom. No such thing as normal people.

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Ann: Now you feel like you wanna take all the drugs in the world, but all the drugs in the world aren't gonna change the feeling that your whole life's been a dream and it's only now that you're waking up.

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Ann: I said thanks, okay? So just drop it.
Ann's Mother: I don't need your thanks.
Ann: Then I'll take them back.

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Ann: Nobody thinks about death in the supermarket.

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[Ann writes in journal]
Ann: THINGS TO DO BEFORE I DIE.
Ann: 1. Tell my daughters I love them several times.
Ann: 2. Find Don a new wife who the girls like.
Ann: 3. Record birthday messages for the girls for every year until they're 18.
Ann: 4. Go to Whalebay Beach together and have a big picnic.
Ann: 5. Smoke and drink as much as I want.
Ann: 6. Say what I'm thinking.
Ann: 7. Make love with other men to see what it's like.
Ann: 8. Make someone fall in love whith me. *deliberate misspelling*
Ann: 9. Go and see Dad in Jail.
Ann: 10. Get false nails. And do something with my hair.

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Lee: Ann, it's something I have to tell you and I have to tell you now.
Ann: Lee, I'm...
Lee: I love you! I'm in love with you... And the world seems less terrible because you exist! I feel like I wanna be with you for the rest of my life... And all that, the palpitations, and the nerves... the pain, the happiness, and the fear! I wanna... I wanna touch you all the times! I wanna take care of you and your girls! And even find your husband a decent job! And get you a house that doesn't have wheels and...
Ann: Careful... That sounds like a classic case of falling in love.
Lee: I am in love... I'm classically in love!

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Ann: [letter] Life is so much better than you think, my love. I know because you managed to fall in love with me even though you saw, what was it, you said 10%? Five maybe? Maybe if you'd seen it all, you wouldn't have liked me. Or you would have liked me in spite of everything. I guess we'll never know...

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Ann: [about the things in the mall] It's just there to try and keep us away from death, and it doesn't work.

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Ann: Without dreams you can't fucking live.

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Ann's Father: Some of us just can't live the kind of life that other people want us to live. No matter how hard you try, you just can't do it.

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Ann's Father: You love someone and you can't make them happy. It's kind of like you love them, but... you can't love them the way they wanna be loved.

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Ann: You pray that this is your life without you.

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[last lines]
Ann: You don't know who or what you're praying to, but you pray. You don't even regret the life that you're not gonna have, because by then you'll be dead. And the dead don't feel anything. Not even regret.

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[last lines]
Ann: [tape to Lee] I loved dancing with you.

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Ann: [off] This is you. Eyes closed, out in the rain. You never thought you'd be doing something like this, you never saw yourself as, I don't know how you'd describe it... Is like one of those people who like looking up at the moon, who spend hours gazing at the waves or the sunset or... I guess you know the kind of people I'm talking about. Maybe you don't. Anyway, you kind of like being like this, fighting the cold, feeling the water seep through your shirt and getting through your skin. And the feel of the ground growing soft beneath your feet. And the smell. And the sound of the rain hitting the leaves. All the things they talked about in the books you haven't read. This is you, who would have guessed it? You.

[o@tm]

Palm Sunday

I believe today is the beginning of Holy Week. It's a tradition for Filipino people to observe it especially because Philippines is a Catholic Country - the biggest in Asia if I'm not mistaken.
I'm just glad that I was able to attend the mass this afternoon in Greenbelt. I think it's a good thing that they put up a chapel there near the shopping mall so that people could drop by and renew.
I met my college friend, Ruby and we're actually supposed to meet at 1 pm and yeah I was there at one but unfortunately she arrived at 3:26... ummm...what's with the 2 hours of waiting? Anyway, it wasn't that bad... I roamed around Glorietta and went inside some shops where I haven't been into before. I think the Power Books there was nice.
Anyway, I'm also late sometimes during our meeting (but hey not that late!!!).

The traditional palm blessing made by the priest


(Too bad the photo isn't good enough since I was in a distance so I zoomed it in, which resulted to this photo.)

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Photos Photos Photos (in Greenbelt)

my college friend, Ruby

What Dreams May Come...etc

Maybe a lot of you had seen this movie. It's wonderful.
It made me think what heaven really looked like. Is it like a big paradise just like in the movie?
I guess people have a very creative imagination of creating something beyond human's grasp.
But whatever the face of heaven is, I'm sure one day we'll get to know what it really looks like. And maybe we'll get answers to a lot of questions too.


Memorable Quotes from IMDb
Albert: Chris, "here" is big enough for everyone to have their own private universe.

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Chris Nielsen: I need Annie.
Albert: That'll change in time.
Chris Nielsen: Oh, come on Einstein ! Time's not on my watch anymore. Time does not exist here. And wherever it went, it's not going to make me need Annie any less.

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Chris Nielsen: A whole human life is just a heartbeat here in Heaven. Then we'll all be together forever.

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Chris Nielsen: Annie, I'm here babe, I still exist.

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Albert: So what is the "me"?
Chris Nielsen: My brain I suppose.
Albert: Your brain ? Your brain is a body part. Like your fingernail or your heart. Why is that the part that's you?
Chris Nielsen: Because I have sort of a voice in my head, the part of me that thinks, that feels, that is aware that I exist at all.
Albert: So if you're aware you exist, then you do. That's why you're still here.

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[Chris, having just arrived in the afterlife, meets his dog]
Chris Nielsen: Boy, I screwed up. I'm in dog Heaven.

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Chris Nielsen: I found you in hell. Don't you think I could find you in Jersey!

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Annie Nielsen: A whole family lost to car crashes. Enough to make a person buy a bike.

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Albert: Thought is real. Physical is the illusion. Ironic, huh ?

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Annie Nielsen: Sometimes, when you lose, you win.

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Chris Nielsen: That's when I realized I'm part of the problem. Not because I remind you. But because I couldn't join you. So I left you alone. Don't give up, okay?

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Chris Nielsen: Is that a kind of occupational hazard of soul mates ? One's not much without the other ?

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Annie Nielsen: Dear Diary, I am writing in your bullshit pages because my shrink is crazier then I am. He thinks you're therapy. He figures if two babies can hammer me into a Psycho ward, what will I do with this ? He is so stupid. He's so stupid that he thinks he pulled me through the breakdown when it was Christy. Always. Only Chis. I was looking through his postcards. Paintings were his obsession. He used art as another way to love me, to help me. To keep us always together.

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Chris Nielsen: Thank you for every kindness. Thank you for our children. For the first time I saw them. Thank you for being someone I was always proud to be with. For your guts, for your sweetness. For how you always looked, for how I always wanted to touch you. God, you were my life. I apologize for everytime I ever failed you. Especially this one...

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Chris Nielsen: There's a man Ian never got to know, the man he was growing up to be. He's a good-looking clear-eyed fella... about 25. I can see him. He's the type of guy men want to be around, because he has integrity, you know ? He has character. You can't fake that. And he's a guy women want to be around, too. Because there's tenderness in him... respect... and loyalty, and courage. And women respond to that. Makes him a terrific husband, this guy. I see him as a father. That's where he really shines. See, when he looks in his kid's eyes and that kid knows that his dad really, really sees him... he sees who he is. Then that child knows that he is an amazing person. He's quite a guy... that I'll never get to meet. I wish I had.

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Chris Nielsen: Where is God in all of this?
Albert: Oh, He's up there. Somewhere... shouting down that He loves us. Wondering why we can't hear Him. You think?

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Chris Nielsen: [to Ian] If I was going through fucking HELL, I'd only want one person in the whole goddamn world by my side.

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The Tracker: You were expecting physical danger ? What could it do, kill ya, huh ? No, in Hell there's real danger. Of losing your mind.

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The Tracker: You called your son Albert. Who is that ?
Chris Nielsen: First doctor I interned under. He was like a father to me.
The Tracker: Ah. His words were gold. A brilliant mind. Do you recall what he practiced before he turned to pediatrics ?
Chris Nielsen: Child psychia-...
The Tracker: ...psychiatry. Yeah. And he always was a slow reader. But these...
[indicating his glasses]
The Tracker: ...used to be rimless, and the rest of me... used to be black.

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The Tracker: I also used to read too slow. I don't need these glasses.
[taking off his glasses]
The Tracker: ...my eyes being a figment of my imagination.

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Chris Nielsen: When I was young, I met this beautiful girl at a lake.

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The Tracker: Elevator to Hell. Going up.

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Leona: D you wanna see others? Perhaps the city?
Chris Nielsen: I would, but travel makes me nauseous.

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Annie Nielsen: Can I sit here?
Chris Nielsen: Actually, no. Two years ago, I reserved this specific area.
Annie Nielsen: What if I say please ?
Chris Nielsen: That's the one exception.

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The Tracker: This is the guy who doesn't give up.

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The Tracker: Your wife love you as strong ? We'll find her. But when we find her nothing will make her recognize you. Nothing will break her denial. It's stronger than her love. In fact, reinforced by her love. You can say everything you long to say, including good-bye. Even if she can't understand it. And you'll have the satisfaction that you didn't give up. That has to be enough.
Chris Nielsen: You just get me there, I'll decide what's enough.

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Marie: [looks at a cardboard cutout of Heaven] Is this where we go when we die?
Chris Nielsen: It's a dream baby, it's a beautiful one, but you know dreams...
Marie: I know, aren't real. I know.

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Chris Nielsen: What's true in our minds is true, whether some people know it or not.

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Chris Nielsen: What some folks call impossible, is just stuff they haven't seen before.

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Albert: You don't understand.
Chris Nielsen: It's not about understanding... it's about *not* giving up!

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[to his dog, in heaven]
Chris Nielsen: A place where we all go can't be bad, can it girl?

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Leona: Where were you just now? Your mind's been wondering all afternoon.
Chris Nielsen: Thinking of someone.

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Albert: Are you loosing your fear?
Chris Nielsen: Fear?
Albert: That you disappeared? You didn't, you only died.

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Albert: Soul mates. It's extremely rare but it exists. Sort of like twin souls tuning into each other. Apparently even in death.

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Chris Nielsen: I forgive you.
Annie Nielsen: For killing my children and my sweet husband?
Chris Nielsen: For being so wonderful a guy would choose hell over heaven just to be around you.

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Albert: Bring mom back. You can do it. I believe in you. Did you ever stop to think why I became Albert? He was the only man you ever listened to. Listen to me now. Think of mom.




earlier...
Went to Landmark early this afternoon and bought 3 videos(What Dreams May Come, My Life Without Me and I am Sam; bought these videos for just Php75 each and hey, they're original) and a present. And I saw this sort of a 'little black book' with a silver pen - it's just so pretty and I also thought of buying a 2008 planner although it's March already... ummm...doesn't matter anyway...
Since I started working, I learned the act of budgeting...lol



earlier today









fast rewind... yesterday
photos taken by Jamila













from Jamila

RUN THROUGH THE RAIN

from an unknown author
A little girl had been shopping with her Mom in Target. She must have been 6 years old, this beautiful red haired, freckle faced image of innocence. It was pouring outside. The kind of rain that gushes over the top of rain gutters, so much in a hurry to hit the earth it has no time to flow down the spout. We all stood there under the awning and just inside the door of the Target.

We waited, some patiently, others irritated because nature messed up their hurried day. I am always mesmerized by rainfall. I got lost in the sound and sight of the heavens washing away the dirt and dust of the world. Memories of running, splashing so carefree as a child came pouring in as a welcome reprieve from the worries of my day.



The little voice was so sweet as it broke the hypnotic trance we were all caught in, "Mom, let's run through the rain," she said.

"What?" Mom asked.

"Let's run through the rain!" She repeated.

"No, honey. We'll wait until it slows down a bit," Mom replied.

This young child waited about another minute and repeated, "Mom, let's run through the rain."

"We'll get soaked if we do," Mom said.

"No, we won't, Mom. That's not what you said this morning," the young girl said as she tugged at her Mom's arm.

"This morning? When did I say we could run through the rain and not get wet?"

"Don't you remember? When you were talking to Daddy about his cancer, you said, 'If God can get us through this, he can get us through anything!'"



The entire crowd stopped dead silent. I swear you couldn't hear anything but the rain. We all stood silently. No one came or left in the next few minutes.

Mom paused and thought for a moment about what she would say. Now some would laugh it off and scold her for being silly. Some might even ignore what was said. But this was a moment of affirmation in a young child's life. A time when innocent trust can be nurtured so that it will bloom into faith.

"Honey, you are absolutely right. Let's run through the rain. If God let's us get wet, well maybe we just needed washing," Mom said.

Then off they ran. We all stood watching, smiling and laughing as they darted past the cars and yes, through the puddles. They held their shopping bags over their heads just in case. They got soaked. But they were followed by a few who screamed and laughed like children all the way to their cars.

And yes, I did. I ran. I got wet. I needed washing.



Circumstances or people can take away your material possessions, they can take away your money, and they can take away your health. But no one can ever take away your precious memories... So, don't forget to make time and take opportunities to make memories everyday. To everything there is a season and a time to every purpose under heaven.

I HOPE YOU STILL TAKE THE TIME TO RUN THROUGH THE RAIN.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them. Send this to the people you'll never forget and remember to also send it to the person who sent it to you. It's a short message to let them know that you'll never forget them.

If you don't send it to anyone, it means you're in a hurry.

Take the time to live!!!



Keep in touch with your friends, you never know when you'll need each other -- and don't forget to run in the rain!

not so good...

Seems like summer has officially started. The summer heat can be felt already. Sometimes, I can't help but think about the summer spent at home. It was so cool and how I missed it.
Still not feeling really good now. Have a cold since yesterday but well at least it's not that bad.

from my inbox

Transport Stike

There was supposed to have a one-day transport strike but the good thing, the problem was resolved, which just lasted the strike until 11 AM.
Thank God, my work starts at 2PM otherwise I would be one of those thousands of people who were stranded because of the "transport holiday".
Jeepney drivers held a transport strike to condemn continuous rise of prices of petroleum products and the system of ticketing in Metro Manila.
[o@tm]

Love Story

So, I watched this movie last night, Love Story - the heartfelt 1970 tale of the love of the lifetime.
Okay, I didn't cry watching this movie but deep inside, I'm touched by it. The story is brilliant (I don't actually know how to criticize a movie so I'm just giving my opinion here, hehe), the dialogues are smart and the couple is just so in love with each other and they both look adorable.
Of course it's sad how the movie ended but that's what life really is.


Memorable Quotes from IMDb
Oliver Barrett IV: Love means never having to say you're sorry.

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Jennifer Cavalieri: You're gonna flunk out if you don't study.
Oliver Barrett IV: I am studying.
Jennifer Cavalieri: Bullshit. You're looking at my legs.
Oliver Barrett IV: You know, Jenny, you're not that great looking.
Jennifer Cavalieri: I know. But can I help it if you think so?

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Jennifer Cavalieri: You look stupid and rich.
Oliver Barrett IV: Well, what if I'm smart and poor?
Jennifer Cavalieri: *I'm* smart and poor.
Oliver Barrett IV: Well what makes you so smart?
Jennifer Cavalieri: I wouldn't go out for coffee with you that's what.
Oliver Barrett IV: Well what if I wasn't even gonna ask you to go out for coffee with me?
Jennifer Cavalieri: Well that's what makes you stupid.

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Phil Cavaleri: Amen.
Boy: It hasn't started yet.
Phil Cavaleri: How am I supposed to know? I've never been to a do-it-yourself wedding before.

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[first lines]
Oliver Barrett IV: What can you say about a twenty-five-year-old girl who died? That she was beautiful and brilliant? That she loved Mozart and Bach, the Beatles, and me?

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Oliver Barrett IV: See, I think you're scared. You put up a big glass wall to keep from getting hurt. But it also keeps you from getting touched. It's a risk, isn't it, Jenny? At least I had the guts to admit what I felt. Someday you're gonna have to come up with the courage to admit you care.
Jennifer Cavalieri: I care.

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Oliver Barrett III: If you marry her now, I'll not give you the time of day.
Oliver Barrett IV: Father, you don't know the time of day!
[walks away]

My latest craze!

I'm into collecting vcd/dvd of romantic movies lately. I bought City of Angels and Love Story. Actually I haven't seen those movies yet. Yeah, I know they're decades old but who cares?
Love stories never grow old. People do grow old but stories never. In fact they make us years younger than what the calendar says.
Ah! I saw so many good vcd/dvd's on sale. Gonna go back to the mall and buy a couple more this weekend. The VCDs are just so cheap (Php100) and the DVDs are just around Php250.


And by the way, today is my nephew's (AJ) 11th birthday.

Gotta watch those movies now.
Till tomorrow...

HAPPY WOMEN'S DAY!!!

If not for the e-card that Hermann (my good Internet friend) sent, then maybe it wouldn't sink on my mind that it's Women's Day! Another person greeted me (someone whom I don't know but just left a note in Bahu).
It's wonderful to be a woman. :-)
I wish I had done something today. You know something for a cause instead of a lazy and unproductive day.


I watched Shaun of the Dead. Yeah it was funny and it was kinda scary too but it has more of a funny side.
And see? I changed my template. The previous one was kinda boring and barren. At least this one is finer than before.hehe



rewind...
So my friends(Mhyre and her bf, Susan, Aj, Ana, Sarah and Jam) and I hang out for a few moments last night in Mang Inasal.
Went home around 2 in the morning.


well then...

Happy Women's Day! ~Cheers~♥

I'm so embarrassed!

Just this afternoon, I was walking coolly to the office when I almost tripped on the street. My heels got stuck on the hem of my pants (I don't know how it happened and it made me looked so foolish. I was like idiotically dancing on the street trying to slow down the momentum.)
My gosh! I was so embarrassed. I wanted to curl up and die. I was like cursing while gaining my composure and the lady in front on me looked back checking what was going on.
And even if I had my earpiece on, I still heard some laughter coming from some guys behind me.
Darn! Well, I tried to regain myself and never turned back my head hoping they wouldn't recognize me next time. Jeez!



On the lighter side of day...
Anabelle and Sarah dropped by in the office. It's a good feeling seeing them again.
We'll probably eat out after the shift.



[o@tm]

teabag

(text message from Razel 020308 9:47 AM)

We are like teabags whose strength comes out when we're put in hot water.
So when problems beset, just think, you must be God's favorite cup of tea.

wondering...

Where am I heading????

(probably the silliest question one could ask herself... tsk tsk tsk...)

Unexpectedly expected

1.) Jam gave me a book today called 'Thank You To A Very Special Friend'. She actually gave this in return for the favor done to her...lol...
Anyway, Jam is a very good friend. I think she's the coolest and the most thoughtful person in the office.






2.) On our way home, Susan was delivering her I'm-tired-of-them line so we decided to stop for a moment and chatted. Gina then asked us if there's something that we noticed on her. Few things were running on my mind when she asked that... "Is she very ill?", "Is she resigning?"... I was thinking of the worst thing that she might confessed and was scared what her confession would be and then she silently said that she's PREGNANT!
I was kinda surprised and I wasn't sure how to react because I wasn't sure if she's happy about it or not so I asked her if she's happy and she gave me that 'oh-yes-I'm-happy' smile. I'm so happy for her. I know she'll be a good mother. I believe her boyfriend is a wonderful person too so they will be great parents.
So we (Mhyre, Susan, Gina and I) decided to chat for a few more minutes in Chowking.




3.) We saw Rhia in Guadalupe unexpectedly. She's working in the same field too. Guess I haven't seen her since the last day she resigned.
It's nice seeing her again.

Sometimes, life is really full of surprises and I guess that's the reason why we should always look forward for tomorrow...
~ Cheers ~

blabber

We don't have work today. I mentally listed down the few things that I was supposed to do today but unfortunately I did something else or I was just kinda lazy to do it... ummm... lack of will power.
So I bought this Shaun of the Dead movie - the one I heard from my friend and she said it was just so funny. I was actually watching it a while ago and after a few mins... jeez... something happened to the DVD player...jeez.... and so now here I am in front of the monitor tapping my fingers on the keyboard.
There's this site that I like coz I can continuously listen to my fave songs.
Gosh I just love, You Belong To Me by Jason Wade. I'm in love with it.
And jeez I can smell cigarettes. I just don't like it.
Anyway, I just like Lifehouse.

Sometimes I find myself smiling alone... if somebody sees me then he or she might think that I'm out of my mind... but really I'm just like that sometimes especially when I listen to a good song or when I remember something...
Anyway, I think I should go now... and guess what's playing over the radio... You got to love me for what I am for simply being me... hmmm... of course
Ciao!

and somewhere in between...

I woke up feeling kinda bad today. I felt like my stomach was so empty and it was so hollow. How I wanted to sleep more even if the clock said it's around 9:30 ( I usually wake up so late and I guess that's just reasonable because I also go to bed late). Maybe my intestines were saying they should be fed... but nah, it's not like that. Anyway, glad it didn't last for more than an hour...



and...
Went to church this afternoon and I was a bit late... then it rained when the mass was about to end. Good thing there was this lady who shared her umbrella with me (though I didn't really mind walking under the rain).
See not all angels live in heaven. Some are dressed like real people, they're strangers on the street.



and also
Shucks... I hate you (not you but this person)! Darn! Why am I kinda affected? This is crazy! Darn it! Shucks!!!! Shucks!!!! shucks!!!!!!!!
Oh my gosh! I think I'm silly! I am! Oh, I hate it!
I'm kinda annoyed, my eyebrows are hitting the ceiling! I'll get over this! Tomorrow, I'll get over this or maybe before I go to bed.
Darn! Sorry, I've been cursing a lot here... ***deep sigh ****



alright
I'd better talk something else.

So I watched Breakfast at Tiffany's. I find the story good (which means, I'll still go for Before Sunrise.I still love their story there.)
I mean the movie is good, maybe I just don't appreciate it well... (guess appreciate is not the word)ummm... so I just don't love it just the way I love Before Sunrise and even Before Sunset.
Anyway, caught some lines here...


Paul Varjak: I love you.
Holly Golightly: So what.
Paul Varjak: So what? So plenty! I love you, you belong to me!
Holly Golightly: [tearfully] No. People don't belong to people.
Paul Varjak: Of course they do!
Holly Golightly: I'll never let ANYBODY put me in a cage.
Paul Varjak: I don't want to put you in a cage, I want to love you!


Holly Golightly: I'm like cat here, a no-name slob. We belong to nobody, and nobody belongs to us. We don't even belong to each other.


Paul Varjak: You know what's wrong with you, Miss Whoever-you-are? You're chicken, you've got no guts. You're afraid to stick out your chin and say, "Okay, life's a fact, people do fall in love, people do belong to each other, because that's the only chance anybody's got for real happiness." You call yourself a free spirit, a "wild thing," and you're terrified somebody's gonna stick you in a cage. Well baby, you're already in that cage. You built it yourself. And it's not bounded in the west by Tulip, Texas, or in the east by Somali-land. It's wherever you go. Because no matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself.
[takes out the ring and throws it in Holly's lap]
Paul Varjak: Here. I've been carrying this thing around for months. I don't want it anymore.

Some of the Best Moments in Life

(a text message sent by Jam 270208 1:19 AM)

- Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.

- A long drive on a calm road.

- Finding money in your old jeans just when you need it.

- Laughing over silly jokes.

- Holding hands with a friend.

- Getting a hug from someone you love.

- The moment your eyes fill with tears after a big laugh.

- Being remembered and greeted by a friend once in a while...

Wishing you these moments in your life always.